Guilt?

Well, I'm settled in front of the telly eating a bit of stirfry and feeling a bit guilty. Why, you ask? Well, I'm feeling guilty because I skipped tonight's run, and I'm feeling guilty because I blocked someone from Instant Messaging me. Oh, the humanity. I need some wine.

Okay, it's raining. Again. How can a country with so much rain suffer from drought? Especially considering that there's a flood watch in my region right now. And yet every summer I'm told they're forced to issue water rationing procedures. Weird. Well, regardless I'm feeling a bit guilty for not running the 6 miles I had on my schedule. Now granted I did 26 this past weekend, I've got the Marine Corps Marathon next weekend, and the Philadelphia Marathon on November 2oth (which is my Boston bid), but I still can't help but feel a bit guilty. But it's raining out, and has been all day. And I'm tired of scabby nipples. Yeah, that's gross. And I'm just plain tired from this weekend. So I'm rationalizing a bit and sitting here in my PJs. Thinking about that girl. No, not Backdoor Girl 2, though she still emails me (and so do her friends). Poor girl. I'm talking about the IM girl below. Read on, noble traveler.

There I was sitting at work when my Skype window pops open and someone wants to chat with me. Now, I know I sent my contact information out to friends, so I respond just in case it's someone that knows me. In fact, I'm assuming it is. But it wasn't. It was someone who just decided they wanted to chat with me. What's up with that? I'd have to guess that someone who randomly IMs a person of the opposite sex (yes, it was a she) isn't looking just to chat. I'm thinking they're either someone fishing for a relationship, which sounds lonely, someone selling something, which I'm not buying (See Backdoor Girl 2), or someone who is just plain weird, which I'm not ALWAYS into. Anyway, I was polite and excused myself, telling her that I wasn't used to random people chatting me up while I was at work. Then I changed my settings so that everyone has to get permission to chat or talk with me, and I continued with my day. But I get home and, no sooner had I logged in, that a pop-up window appears asking for permission to chat. It's her. And I'm wondering whether or not I should accept. Not because I'm interested in anything to do with this person, but because I don't want to feel guilty rejecting this person. Why is that? I can understand feeling guilty if you're at a party and something akin to this happens, but that's someone you've met, and possibly have to see again. In my case, this is someone with whom I've never met (nor likely ever will). And, if I ever did, what are the chances we'd recognize each other? So I click the refusal button. Denied!!! Now why do I feel guilty about this? Am I too considerate? That's odd. I've never been called that before.

Forging ahead. I hope all of you had a great weekend. I'm looking forward to heading to the States on Thursday for a few days. I've got quite a few things on my plate for the weekend. And it's Halloween (one of the best holidays). Busy or not, I can't wait! Anyway, I'm off. I'm going to have some wine, and maybe some candy. Now there's something to feel guilty about.